U Knw what i miss
u know what i miss, playing organized sports, especially soccer, the competition, pissing off the opponent, getting pissed off, pushing shoving for position, getting away with cheap fouls, talking trash, picking up fights and bluffing and proving to yourself that your faster, stronger or better than the man next to you, while being part of a team and winning. and also that adrenaline rush that lasts for the 90 min or so of play. To me it was where i always felt the most free even within the rules of the game, i felt like i could be me and let my temper reign and let myself be as agressive as i wanted and have not a care in the world except win or lose. It was simple win or lose, and whatever it takes. Outside of the pitch, i feel like i have to control my temper, i can never just let it go cuz i dont want to get violent, but in soccer i could push and shove my anger away. man i miss soccer or sports in general really, playing them that is. It made me feel the most alive
